I am calling bullshit. On myself. In the very beginning of my time here at Amritabha, I was given the opportunity to use the counseling room for my crystal healing treatments. I thought: “Yeah, it’s time I get back into the swing of things. But not yet. I need clarity first! Maybe I haven’t offered any healing lately because I am unsure of why I am doing this? Yeah, I bet that’s it!” I thought: “Maybe I need to make brochures, maybe putting into words what it is I’m actually doing will help me get that clarity, and then I’ll suddenly find myself offering treatments again”.
No brochures, no facebook page, no website – clients happy anyway
Two months in, I haven’t handed out a single brochure, my Facebook page is still inactive, and I still haven’t made a crystal healing page on my website (edit: in the process of writing this blog post I actually redid my Facebook page and I created a page for my crystal healing here). All those things I thought I needed to find clarity in order to get back into giving crystal healing. I have been giving treatments however. Some I just offered because I saw that I could do something, some I gave by request. And you know what? Every single client was happy with the result – despite the lack of brochures, Facebook page, subpage on website, and the supposed “lack of clarity”! Like I said: I’m calling bullshit on myself.
Just get going – you can always improve once you got started
The epiphany came this afternoon. I talked to a friend who wanted advice on her own endeavor to put more focus on her work as a healer. We talked about how to go about her website and the whole social media thing. When she asked me what I thought about her ideas, I told her that I could hear that she was a little hesitant, but that it was exactly the way she had put it in the beginning of our conversation: there will always be that doubt, that little bit of reluctance in the beginning. It’s all part of the process, and waiting for the time when that hesitation will have disappeared is fooling yourself. I said that I thought that the best thing to do would be to just go ahead with the website. That the ideas we had come up with this far were good enough to get us started, and that the whole point was just to get going. We could always improve later on.
Done is better than good – The bullshit detector finally went off
It’s so easy to see things focused when it comes to other people. Now that I am writing this, I can’t help but laugh at myself because guess what conclusion I drew from this conversation with my friend? That maybe I needed to get started on her website to help me see more clearly what I wanted for my own! Ha! Right, that’s exactly what I need, one more project to use as an excuse to procrastinate. I don’t know when exactly my bullshit detector finally went off, but at some point I could suddenly see how I was turning everything into an excuse – how I was convinced I wouldn’t be able to work from this desk, how I needed to water the flowers first, how now was not a good time because this wasn’t creating from a natural flow but rushing things because I wanted them too badly … It. Was. All. Bullshit.
Maybe I will not pick the perfect title for the Facebook page this afternoon (edit: I think I did pretty good). Maybe I will not write the perfect text to sell my treatments (edit: pretty happy with that, too). Maybe I do have issues with the price I’m asking, and maybe it’s self-sabotage to be asking it anyway. Maybe I will not choose the perfect picture for the header (edit: don’t care). Maybe.
Everything isn’t up to you – just do your best and trust that it’s enough
The fact is, no matter how I tackle this, at the end of the day it’s not up to me whether someone decides to book my treatments. No matter what title, picture, text or pricing I choose, it will never speak to everybody. But if I don’t do anything at all because I am waiting for that perfect timing, the day I will feel ready to name the price that I in fact know my work is worth, the right whatever, I am not giving a single person the chance to find me. It’s like that joke with the guy that prays to God to win the lottery, and God answers: “I’d like to let you win, but I really need you to buy a ticket”.
So this is me buying a ticket, right here, right now, no more bullshitting myself: I am here for you. I am a crystal healer, and a pretty good one, too. I have written about my kind of crystal healing – check out the links below. You can contact me with any crystal healing questions, and OF COURSE, you can book appointments with me. I am happy to receive you here at the Château Amritabha, which is where I am staying until the end of September.
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If you want to know more about my crystal healing, I did create that site after all.
These are the blog posts I’ve written on crystal healing:
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